what have i done.. i dunt wanna hurt anyone...
it was a mistake?
was it?
it's not about me
i mean seriously
if you won't believe me
i can't do anything about it.
i just hope that u know that I'm telling the truth
I'm not going to beg, because I'm not that desperate
I know I didn't do it for some reason
I'm not the one planning
This things happened to me a lot
I've been forcing myself not to let my tears roll down because of sumthing that I didn't do.
I've been forcing myself to stay strong not only for me, but everyone.
Talk about me for all I care
I love my friends
I wouldn't hurt them unless it's not on purpose but came out emotionally
We should have trust and faith, believe each other
give everyone a chance, because everyone needs it
human are not perfect, we make mistakes, a lot
aaaaaaa I'm sorrryyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy
I never think of hurting anyone.....
Let me be hurt, don't let it happen to the ones that I love...
oh the world~!!
It's been a long time since i post. haih, Class is on, short week, so every subject is going to crammed up. My classes = Design Process, Malaysian History, Multimedia Authoring and Spanish. Yeah I'm taking Spanish with my beloved Spanish teacher cum roomie, Mia. hehe.
Oh yeah, b4 that, my birthday was on Sunday, a day b4 my class started. Mia's the 1st to wish me. Duh~ . At first I thought people won't remember... but it was alright. Thnx Mia... Actually I want to thank everyone who wish for me and to those who gave me sumthing. Thnx guys~!!!!!! I love u guys soooooo much....
I'm already 19, but I don't think i looked like one, hohoho. Just wanna wish happy bday to all NOVEMBER PEOPLE~!!!!!!!! We're like the best.. don't you agree??
List of people born in November... if I'm not mistaken la....
2hb : Ash
3hb : Zaxx & Ejad
4hb : Timmie
5hb : Nabilah & Aman n Fairuz SMKBI
6hb : Ammir
10hb : Syimir & Shiow Woei
12hb : Nini
14hb : Tasya & Hariz
15hb : Hidhir
20hb : Anas
Sori klu ada terlepas n salah.. my reminder kat phone dah tak betul...
Class, the same, kerje byk... gila byk... n spanish... the teacher's cute... apuesto in Spanish. hehe.
My god I'm sooo not in the mood rite now, I dunno why...
O yeah forgot... went to open house mia, lepak with her sambil tgk wayang n shop shop skit a day b4, n buy converse shoes. 1st time tu.... harap harap thn lama kan.. raya tak cam raya... still tak puas ati. hoho.
o well... aaaaaaaaa spanish spanish... i need help... deos mio~!!!!
bye then
p/s: budak skola saya... klu korang nov... tell me la ek....
bosan 2
assalamualaikum~
almost the end of hols.still bored. parents coming home from indo tomorrow.
i wanna go back hostel tomorrow, but wanna wait for my dad.
yesterday went to cyber, sent some stuff back, and shit the room smells like oatmeal.yuck.
went to cyberia to pick pitt n noa for food at alamanda. changing plans, pick up elle also.
after food *kenyang* went to carrefour to buy stuff for my beloved hostel room.
all my stuff terabur, adeh abislah mia balik esok ni karang.
demm guard tak reti tutup boot my dad's car.
my godddddddddd nak balik hostel.ibu ayah mana anda?????
p/s: saya mahu jadi tua
bye kot
raya ke?
assalamualaikum~
been a long time since i post new entry.
like always, this hols = boriiinggg
raya = omg i dont know why but this raya doesnt feel like raya at all.
demmit, sakit ati tetiba plak.
dont have the time tu tempah my new baju kurung which supposed to be black and a bit goldish.
well i thought i dont even have the time to buy *n selama ni got no size also.
my aunty gave her baju to me... o wat the heck, its still baju, not that im going to get naked rite?
but then, i think 2 days b4 raya, went to ampang park with my parents n went to first lady.
got one baju kurung. waaaa got size... haha. rm 200, budget for this raya. ok la tu, last year takde pon.
got one baju raya, 4 tudung, n one heels. suka suki je aku pki heels.
one thing after another, what i know is that my raya doesnt feel like ray at all. demm.
haiseh, then 4th day of raya, parents when to indonesia oredi. im left alone *not really* in my house with my brother. boring again~! o well wat to do. dah nasib
bosan
gila best dance~
assalamualaikum~
waaaaaaaaa gila lama tak dance....
i went to kem's house with que for some dancing
well, i called it the routine making coz i dunt really dance,
just trying the routines that we gonna have after a long time
we did im a slave for u from britney..
and we actually have a deep talk about so u think u can dance...
about malaysia having their own SYTYCD show
not all malaysians can dance like americans...
they are like soooo cool
o well dance dance happy happy
went for sahur with que on the way back kat presint 9, n macam ribut
evrything flew from everywhere
n then, met the cyberia guys... aman yeen sume tu la
lepak with them for a while
then balik
cant wait to practice with the routine myself, mesti gempak gila.
laters then....
assalamualaikum~
sakit ati kat *teman*
assalamualaikum~
its been a long time since i've become 'emotionally stressed and pissed off'
pissed of with what u ask?
with my friends.... eh wait...
are they my friends? because if they truly are good friends, they would realize where am i...
if not, then i can just say that they are only 'people that i know'
its been 11 days of ramadhan. a lot of things happened.
especially stuff that really make me.. again, pissed. test from god la on this holy month.
coz of certain events, it keeps me wondering...
do i have any friends?
do they actually talk to me coz i talk to them?
coz when im not around, there're no difference
or am i just saying this coz my heart is broken?
not sure bout that but what im sure of is that
im just nabilah, and the nabilah that no people will like
im just the nabilah that they thought as an asset when help is needed or whatever
good to have me for joy, laugh together
and maybe all-alone-nabilah when disasters came
i know its wrong for me to say this, so i hope anyone can tell me the right thing
it hurts when u walk with the one u thought ur friends
but then i'm just like the wind blowing beside them... unseen
well at least u can still feel the wind
im glad that there're certain people *other than my families of course*
who actually care about me... a lot
sorry if i dunt realise that
sometimes i dunt even know about my feelings towards the people around me
n i mean feelings not only love as friends
but more, n im afraid of that...
o well
nanti emo lagi la... hoho
laters then... selamat berpuasa...
assalamualaikum~
japanese name
assalamualaikum~
| Your Japanese Name Is... |
Kaoru Kaoin |
i have a cool japanese name
merdeka bebeh~!
assalamualaikum~
merdeka day just passed, n this is one of the best merdeka yet that happened to me. celebration in mmu, very rare for mmu students. it was a slow start but i dunt care. got my camera, but still not good in night shots. sheesh. o well. performance from t@mu, amir n jihan. really confusing, yet artistic. den performances from bands n nanyid n choir n even from us, not officially no.
starting all over again. after t@mu, we have performance from Friday, which i just knew that it consist of my schoolmates n classmate. some people i know like adib, and some like i know their faces only, azim n ashraf. den performance from 3 bands which i dunno (but theres a band which consist of people from diff uni, n the vocalist is preeetttty CUTE. lalala. move on. then theres a band where every single one of them where the same colour shirt n same type of jeans.... like a costume, but what really sucks to the band is that, i think their mic were shut off. kesian. the one that ask them to perform should ready with what song theyre gonna do, prepare n stuff. mangkuk tul. no respect. nasyids good, n PA'an was there... GO PA'AN~!!!!! Photobooth perform also. but i felt weird. why? because my dear friend noa wasnt the bassist no more. pelik tgk 4 org je. takdir nak wat cemana.
perform perform, dance from ics (sorry not good enuff for me...) dragosta din tei (numa numa) wrong version from a band which again i dunno, and at last. choir people~!!!!! waiting for mia, but dgn bodoh nyer.... we cannot see the choir people coz the committe for the event was in front of them. o well, at least my frens are there. we were given mini jalur gemilang and we sang all the patrotic songs. cant even hear the choirs coz we're having the time of our lives. scream n shout with the songs n stuff. n suddenly *POP*, black out. busuk gila.wait for a couple of minits, we're on again, and cont singing. haha. kelakar gila.
finish of the night (that sentence is sooo wrong)we all went to eat, mamak of course gonna be full, so two cars went to McD SK, n den with god's will, we met most of our friends there. people from cyberia apartment n townhouse, hostel people. ot was a blast. rmi sgt i cant even type their names. me mia hani n niena sat in one table. we were laughing all the way... then hanim join us. the table of the singles is cool. lalala~ best gila la senang ckp. n den when mcd's closing. we all went cam whoring~ wanna take pic with one person... tak bleh... everyone just ran in front of the camera. haha. after that, plan to go to tasik, but then hujan... aiyoh sedeh. but me niena hanim n hani went on a night drive in putra *tibalah masa yg takleh dilupakan*
that's all for the night. went back to hostel n sleep. kroih kroih. its the best merdeka ever coz we spent time with our alpha frens. its been a long time since we have a great time like this. hope to have more. thats all i think.
later days~
P:S/ to some people that werent there.... sori tak kol or miskol... tidak boleh kerana menghadapi kesilapan teknikal dgn diri ini... lalalala
assalamualaikum~
